Wednesday, 6 April 2011

** 10th day chaste **

i am in a very good mood as i type this post, because tomorrow i am off to stay with Master and i will be with Master for six days - i am very excited and very much looking forward to spending time with Master!

Today was mainly spent in London having lunch with a friend, seeing a film at the BFI and doing some special shopping for Master and that is what this post is mainly going to focus on.  Today was the final day of the LGBT Film Festival at the BFI and today's film was probably the film i enjoyed the least; nonetheless i enjoyed the opportunity to see it.  i'm a passionate supporter of queer film and i believe it's vital the queer community continues to support and encourage the arts within our community.  Film in particular is an integral part in promoting greater understanding of queer issues and of recording and documenting our history and ongoing struggles.

My political rant stated, my special shopping for Master is probably of more interest.  Master had stated that He wanted me to get a leather jockstrap and, admittedly at my suggestion, leather boots.  Given i was planning to come down to London for the film festival, Master was amenable to my purchasing these items today.  i was quite excited to be purchasing "kink" items at Master's requests.  My collection of gear is surprisingly small and what little i do have is mostly in Australia:  all i have in the UK is a vibrating butt plug, bicep leather strap, some cock rings, a butt plug, white jockstraps and a chastity device.  A rather small collection for a slave!  Knowing that i was purchasing items that Master wanted me to purchase made everything feel so much more exciting and i was keen to purchase the items:  after all, i want Master to be pleased when He looks at me!

There are two main fetish shops in London which i think are ideal for the type of clothing i was looking for.  The leather jockstrap i bought from RoB and although more expensive than the one in Expectations,  i think the RoB jockstrap looks quite hot, plus i liked the idea of the zip down the front.  RoB is quite an established leather and kink brand and i have previously shopped in both their Amsterdam and Berlin stores.  A picture of the jockstrap i bought:

This jockstrap is actually the first bit of leather fetish clothing per se i have actually owned so i am quite excited about.

The more interesting stuff happened in Expectations where i went to buy boots.  Leather boots can be quite expensive, particularly for new boots, so one of the reasons why i went to Expectations was because they sell used ex-military boots.  Of course, wearing used ex-military boots is quite hot as well!  There was really only one style of boot available, so thankfully Master was okay with them.  i had sent photos of jockstrap and boots to Master before making my purchases.  The boots i bought:

Thursday, 17 March 2011

** 3rd day chaste **

This is the first time I have written on this blog (in the admittedly short it has been going) in which I have not been locked in chastity! My device was unlocked by my friend DL today so that I could spend a couple of days out of chastity just to make sure everything was okay, there was no swelling, I could still get hard etc!

So far it feels quite weird being out of chastity and my cock being "normal". When the lock was removed and I was able to take the device off, I was quite pleased with how my cock looked and felt. One of my big fears is that my cock will be unclean or smelly, but I was pleased to see my enhanced and proactive cleaning regime over the last week has been successful. I hate the idea that Master might have to see my cock being unclean when He takes off the device, so I want to ensure I am able to ensure my cock (which is actually His - that is, the cock attached to my body which he owns) is clean and hygienic for whenever he wants to see it or do something with it.

One of the consequences of being in chastity is that my hormones seemed to have slowed down quite dramatically. Although I still hard (within the confines of the cage) and horny, I'm not as horny as I used to be when I was cumming 2 or 3 times a day. My chastity started on Saturday, 5 March and since that time I have only cum once - when Master ordered me to cum on Monday, 14 March. Right now, although unlocked, I do not feel like cumming. My sense of devotion to Master right now is that I could not even think about cumming without his permission and Master has said I will not cum again until my visit. Therefore, I think mentally I subconsciously now I won't cum so therefore I don't think about it.

The big event of the last twenty-four hours was the arrival of Master's box. Master's box arrived at about 3pm in the afternoon and I placed it on my bed and txted Master whether I could open it. Master denied permission until he was able to talk to me first. I then spent the next seven hours attempting to wait patiently to hear from Master so I could be allowed to open the box. When Master did permit me to open the box, I was to do so in the slaveboys chatroom with the whole room able to watch on my cam.

It was a rather interesting experience. Unfortunately I am not great with technology, so I worried whether I was working the cam and chatroom correctly, but thankfully all went well on that front. Opening the box and seeing the clothing Master had choosen for me was absolutely fantastic and I enjoyed the experience. I was glad that Master also had a chance to see me.

The clothing Master has chosen for me is great and I feel absolutely honoured and privileged that Master took the time to choose clothing and post it to me. I can wait to wear it on the first day of my visit to Master. I was again reminded of how organised and thoughtful Master was by the fact he included a belt! I would never have thought of a belt!

Receiving this box of clothes from Master made me feel special, not just because it meant I was to wear something that Master had chosen and wanted me to wear, but also because Master had taken the time to choose this clothing for me. For a slave, a Master taking time to choose items for them and to organise material items for a slave's own use, is a great honour and privilege. A Master's time is valuable and any time he dedicates to his slave is a gift, reward and privilege to that slave.

There are many things I am looking forward to about visiting March in 10 days (not that I am counting). One of things that I am looking forward to is being able to expand any pre-conceived limits I may have. As a slave I do not believe I have any limits: the only limits I have are those set by my Master to ensure my health and safety and that no activity is illegal. A slave must have complete trust in his Master and know his Master; at the very least the slave can rest assured that the Master will do nothing to damage his slave which is his property.

I am looking forward to trying new activities and experiencing new highs in both pain and pleasure with my Master. I believe that in trying achieving new levels, pushing limits and trying new experiences the bond between Master and slave can only be enhanced. Something that I am hoping my Master will do with me is corporal punishment. I have always been fascinated by porn clips or stories where a slave or sub is spanked or punished to the point of breaking down into sobbing tears only to then be comforted by the Master. I think the idea of being "broken", reduced to one's very essence and then being comforted by your Master is a powerful image of accepting a Master's control over your life. I love the idea of being pushed to a new emotional level by Master in this way and it something I hope my Master is willing to try with me.

I think I will keep this blog rather short tonight given my previous blogs have been a bit long! Still feeling happy, still feeling comfortable and looking forward to speaking with my Master tonight.