Today has been my first full day back at home since my visit to Master and spending time in London. It felt rather strange to be sleeping in a bed for the first time in almost two weeks last night. The day was spent catching up on household chores around the home and was generally quite a relaxing day.
This morning i was able to talk to Master on the phone and that was great. i enjoy speaking with Master immensely and since leaving Master's house i have been missing His conversations.
Today i updated my blog a little bit by reviewing all the posts and creating labels for them so that Master can read my posts both chronologically and thematically if He wishes. i also added a new opening line to each post recording my chastity status. As i have comment previously on this blog, i have quite embraced the process of blogging and now that i am becoming rather "into it" i am keen to improve the format and aesthetic value of the blog to make it more easier and enjoyable for Master to read. As i do not have the ability to change any settings on this blog, i have emailed Master seeking his permission to do that.
On Friday and Saturday i saw a couple of friends at the London BFI's Gay and Lesbian Film Festival. One of my hobbies and interests is film and i love watching films, my favourite genres mainly being drama, historical, romance and comedy. i am particularly interested in art-house and foreign language films, particularly German and French film, and am passionate about queer film. Back home i have a considerable collection of queer films (approximately 80 titles) and i make a conscientious effort to follow the key works in queer cinema. Yesterday i bought a new book from the BFI listing the principal works in English-language queer cinema and am making an effort to watch all the major films listed in the book.
One of the "films" i saw in London was a collection of short films, and one in particular was about a first-time bondage scene which i thought was brilliantly acted and directed. Reflecting on my own first fews times, i thought the directed excellently captured the feeling and emotional pathos of a young submissive experiencing BDSM for the first time.
Something that struck me about the session captured in this film was that the bondage involved was mainly what we would call "puppy play". Puppy play is something that i have not done very much of but something that i am really keen to try. Master-puppy play can be, i think, a possible alternative to Master-slave relationships but i am not looking for this.
For me, what i find a fascinating (and rather hot) fantasy is the idea of being my Master's puppy for a set period of time within our established Master-slave context. One of the reasons why i think i could only do puppy play for a set period of time is because one of the key aspects of puppy play, as i understand it, is that puppies are often naughty and seek to push their Master's rules and limits. As a slave i simply could not do this: my mindset is one of obedience and acceptance of my Master's rules, not one of challenging them!
Nonetheless, i do have a fantasy of experiencing what it would be like to be a puppy. i am keen to experience what it would be like to be walked on a leash, ordered to pee against a tree in the garden, eat and drink from a bowl without hands, speak only by barking, and have my hands in mits and walk around on hands and knees. Hopefully if Master is interested it might be something i can try with him; if not it remains in the realm of my fantasies.
That in itself touches on an interesting aspect of BDSM within the Master-slave relationship. Although the Master-slave relationship is already an very intense form of BDSM, i think there is still scope within it to try new and exciting things. For me, i am quite kinky and there is pretty much no kink that i am aware of that does not interest me or turn me on at some level. i love the idea of Master suddenly announcing that from a certain point forward i will act in a particular way and then continuing to act in that way until He tells me to stop.
Master has foreshadowed that this weekend we maybe going to a BDSM event in His town. This is something that i am quite excited about. i am particularly keen to have the experience of serving Master and being identified as Master's slave in front of other Masters and slaves. i feel very, very proud of my Master's ownership of me and the opportunity to demonstrate that publicly in front of others who are part of our community appeals to me very much indeed. Like everything of course, it will depend on what Master wishes to do.
One of the things i love so much about Master's control is the freedom it gives me. i love the fact that i can look forward with excitement and optimism to visiting Master again this Thursday, secure in the knowledge that i have no control or choice over what i do. All that matters to me is that i will be with Master and that is what makes me happiest above all. The simple bliss of knowing that i will be at Master's feet.
Thankfully only 4 sleeps until i'm back where i belong with Master.
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